If You live in this world, You're feelin' a change of the guard.

1 am, June 4, 2008.

I have bought, successfully the domain, obelisksound.com   I am goin' through lots of up and down type stuff today.
I am getting along okay with the people near me, and am feeling good and positive, and it works.  It works well, actually.  I am very glad that I can enjoy life, even though I'm in pain.  The hip really hurts like hell.   I rub it but it doesnt help,sometimes.  I'm scared.  It isn't cool at all.

I'm scared I'm not only physically but emotionally scarred.  Can I treat myself better, can I do better, can I learn to not attract persons like the ones I've been attracting.  Can I be nice?  I'm learning that by removing certain things and putting other things in place, as well as more personal conenction inside,outside and beyond.

What do I want to do with obelisksound.com?

a press for my stories
a place for my music
a place for my art.
 a place to put other websites.
A factory!
a factory of dreams.
i will put my zine(s) there, i will have fun.
I can do any damn thing i want.