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Weclome back to 7th grade.
Last night, after a wonderful time at Trevor Tomlinson's wedding reception, I went to the Forest for a couple beers.
Haters afoot.
I was called gay by at least 6 of the skanks there, and at least 5 asshole dudes They called me bad names like fruity fuck and way way more, A bunch of the morons wanted to kick my ass.
I'm glad I got out of there, and I don't know if I wish to go back. I don't like fuckers who talk like I'm gay, I am not a homosexual, and do not wish to be lynched by a bunch of drunk pieces of shit who'd be doing the world a favor by learning about bees up close or some other crap (edited 7-1)
I despise small minded people who only like to pick on others, and I hate haters.
What the fuck is wrong with this planet, and Why the hell won't it grow up a bit.
I thought that I could be accepted over here, and not be judged. Well, guess what, as it turns out, The same stupid hurtful words get tossed around, and people still get beat up because they can't fucking think. These are the people who should be shot, and I totally feel that murder would be justified on mean and evil people who only wish to do harm to others.
People who hate me can fuck off and die.
1 am, June 4, 2008.
I have bought, successfully the domain, obelisksound.com I am goin' through lots of up and down type stuff today.
I am getting along okay with the people near me, and am feeling good and positive, and it works. It works well, actually. I am very glad that I can enjoy life, even though I'm in pain. The hip really hurts like hell. I rub it but it doesnt help,sometimes. I'm scared. It isn't cool at all.
I'm scared I'm not only physically but emotionally scarred. Can I treat myself better, can I do better, can I learn to not attract persons like the ones I've been attracting. Can I be nice? I'm learning that by removing certain things and putting other things in place, as well as more personal conenction inside,outside and beyond.
What do I want to do with obelisksound.com?
a press for my stories
a place for my music
a place for my art.
a place to put other websites.
A factory!
a factory of dreams.
i will put my zine(s) there, i will have fun.
I can do any damn thing i want.
Wow, I haven't started a post with that kind of title... in years.
I don't like politics, i feel very disconnected from the modern political system, as i walk on the margins of society, the issues i have are far different than those of the main candidates, but i hope that sometime some of them will, maybe, listen to, or at least pay someone to listen to the. It's All money.... especially for other countries, like giving the tech support jobs that I was trained for to the Middle East while i had to fail at selling 10 sacks in a trailer park for food and gas to get down the freakin' line long enough to get beat up in the process so much it screwed me and my brain up, good.
is it just me, or does it seem like since 9/11 we've given up on treating or giving a shit about AIDS in America? Another thing, we're still chasing after Nazis, and jailing them, when we should be looking for the piece of shit that made aids and screw him up too.... is it wrong for me to say that? I hope not, i hope the peace freaks will let me vent, They Had Their "Summer Of Love", right.... good... We had Woodstock '94.... brought to you by Pepsi, fucking pepsi, man. We were already paying for the shit on Pay per View, for crying out loud.... they should have had 2 feeds, one on MTV (you mean eMpTy Vee, hop tv, right obelisk?.... yes kids) I'm an American and i have the right to.be able to voice my opinion.... no I don't beleve that good programming should be piped into your home via Viacom's little pop-pusher, i believe that you should have to go and earn it, or copy it from soemone cool if you can't find it. I don't like commercial music not "Idol", nor any of the new rock that's out and the local / whatever/ Metal is so dead to me, you have no fucking clue. i was extremely into independent music and punk rock from like 9x to like 2005, i think that maybe i might have tried to get back into it, but I'm completely burnt out, right now... I wish i could just switch on the energy, grab a mic and goto town like the old days.... I know i have brain probs and i can't remember lyrics worth a damn, but, shit, i was good. (at least enough for me, and that's what really matters),,,, Matter of fact i probably will do more stuff, .... not with the same batch of folks, but either with new people, or just me.... my techno is still kickin' ass.
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we'll see.
shoot, forgot to post new song.
yo- you can check out my youtube account here:
http://www.youtube.com/user/obelisksound
more will be put on there and here. soon/ or soonish/ later.
mello-
I went to Ukiah, to a f'n show.... an all ages show at that, boy was it.... media-oker, my friend Nate's band All Teeth kicked major ass though and the band from santa rosa was groovy and the band from texas had a nice thrash bit. Have a great day-
hey its obelisk, i forgot to put some text up with my song. darnitall.
i can not for the life of me tell if this is or isn't "correct" by blog and social networking rules. please enjoy the tune.