2 posts from June 2008

Weclome back to 7th grade.

Last night, after a wonderful time at Trevor Tomlinson's wedding reception, I went to the Forest for a couple beers.
Haters afoot.
I was called gay by at least 6 of the skanks there, and at least 5 asshole dudes  They called me bad names like fruity fuck and way way more,   A bunch of the morons wanted to kick my ass.
I'm glad I got out of there, and I don't know if I wish to go back.  I don't like fuckers who talk like I'm gay, I am not a homosexual, and do not wish to be lynched by a bunch of drunk pieces of shit who'd be doing the world a favor by learning about bees up close or some other crap (edited 7-1)

I despise small minded people who only like to pick on others, and I hate haters.

What the fuck is wrong with this planet, and Why the hell won't it grow up a bit.

I thought that I could be accepted over here, and not be  judged.  Well, guess what, as it turns out, The same stupid hurtful words get tossed around, and people still get beat up because they can't fucking think.  These are the people who should be shot, and I totally feel that  murder would be justified on mean and evil people who only wish to do harm to others. 

People who hate me can fuck off and die.

1 am, June 4, 2008.

I have bought, successfully the domain, obelisksound.com   I am goin' through lots of up and down type stuff today.
I am getting along okay with the people near me, and am feeling good and positive, and it works.  It works well, actually.  I am very glad that I can enjoy life, even though I'm in pain.  The hip really hurts like hell.   I rub it but it doesnt help,sometimes.  I'm scared.  It isn't cool at all.

I'm scared I'm not only physically but emotionally scarred.  Can I treat myself better, can I do better, can I learn to not attract persons like the ones I've been attracting.  Can I be nice?  I'm learning that by removing certain things and putting other things in place, as well as more personal conenction inside,outside and beyond.

What do I want to do with obelisksound.com?

a press for my stories
a place for my music
a place for my art.
 a place to put other websites.
A factory!
a factory of dreams.
i will put my zine(s) there, i will have fun.
I can do any damn thing i want.